At times I have felt disjointed and disconnected from myself. Through the camera lens, I am intentionally disconnecting from the world in order to capture fragments of the beautiful and the hideous, the dark and the light. It is this medium that best allows me to connect, learn, identify, and recreate.
So much of my identity was based on rank and status in the military. My rank and my uniformity were the only things protecting me from being weak and objectionable and created a body only acknowledged by symbols and insignias. After living out of uniform for a few years, I began to feel unknowable even to myself. In stripping away the symbols with which I identified, I found myself bare and vulnerable. But this same vulnerability allowed me to begin to see who I was outside the context of symbols without assuming defeat. Through this series of self-portraits, I am trying to understand what frames identity and learning to recreate my own.